Why Is Vulnerability Important: Christmas Letter Fakes
Who else here is old enough to remember Christmas letters?
Aren’t We Awesome?
For those who aren’t it went like this: in the days before Facebook people sent Christmas cards (OK the organized ones still do that part). Inside would be a carefully typed letter catching up your friends and family on all the doings of the previous year. A carefully edited and unfailingly cheerful letter. I think most of us had at least one family member who sent out those letters every year with the same glowing and perfect update:
“Little Billy was officially inducted into the Ultra Super Genius Club this year, we are so proud! He launched his first rocket to the moon with great success and is looking forward to heading to Mars next year. Ken got a promotion at work and is now in charge of the whole Western Division of Ultra Corp, while I have effortlessly perfected cooking macarons in preparation for us all moving to France next year so Billy can get some cultural enrichment.”
The Bullshit We Want To Be True
We all read that letter thinking, no you haven’t Aunt Helen, no one perfects macarons; you just sigh and eat your failures like the rest of us. In other words, it was Facebook, but a whole year condensed into one page highly edited text.
Even Worse: Daily Perfection
Social Media creates much the same space, but it’s daily and relentless. Let’s face it, none of us are actually perfect. But no one wants to admit it. Who wants to be the person posting a picture of what our living room actually looks like by the time we get to seven PM on a Friday night, or at the end of a long weekend with the kids off school?
I don’t care what you call it, keeping up with the Jones, or Instagram Perfect, or Facebook Posing but whatever we call it, it’s false. None of us are perfect and sparkly all the time. Every one of us has a mess hiding behind some door, has a crying jag at something, loses our temper, or drops an entire container of flour on the floor to the delight of dogs and toddlers alike.
Vulnerability Is the Answer
One of my favorite authors is Dr. Brene Brown. She writes about shame, connection, vulnerability and a whole mess of other stuff that makes people uncomfortable. Perhaps the most important thing she discovered in her research was that without vulnerability real connection, the thing we humans need most, wasn’t possible.
”Vulnerability is about having the courage to show up and be seen.” – Brene Brown
In other words, so long as we present that Instagram Perfect face to others, we are missing out on real connection with other people. Connection of course here means something deeper than the number of “friends” or “followers” we’ve accumulated. It goes much deeper than likes or shares.
“I define connection as the energy that exists between people when they feel seen, heard, and valued; when they can give and receive without judgment; and when they derive sustenance and strength from the relationship.” – Brene Brown
Connection is essential. Medical studies are beginning to show that the chief cause of addiction is not the chemical structure of drugs, but lack of real connection and community [source]. We need connection so much that our brains have entirely different reactions to chemicals as powerful as heroine when we are, or are not, connected meaningfully to other people.
The Spiritual Practice of Connection
There are a million spiritual practices out there, yoga, meditation, crystals, prayer, chant, sweat lodges, vision quests, tarot; but I think that perhaps one of our most important spiritual tasks as human beings is to be honest about the fact that we aren’t perfect. (The ancients called this humility.)
Vulnerability Is Real
In other words, to be vulnerable. It’s the opposite of the Christmas letter and the Instagram filter. Years ago I stumbled, entirely at random, across a book with an utterly ridiculous cover. It’s author was entirely honest. By the end of the first chapter I was hooked. I sat in bed laughing so hard that tears streamed down my cheeks. I found myself collapsed in my pillows shaking with laughter and totally unable to breathe because she so got me.
I scared the poop out of my poor husband. But I also felt like I’d met a new best friend. We cried together and laughed together, and I felt a whole lot better about my own shit because of how honest she was about hers.
Jenny Lawson aka the Bloggess has built a quirky empire out of being honest about things most people won’t talk about, like mental illness, giant chickens, and a festive Christmas boar’s head (you had to be there, but here’s a hint.) I can’t imagine how much courage it took to write those first articles on her blog, or to have those first conversations with her friends, but the result is striking.
A big, supportive community of people all struggling together and laughing a lot more than we would otherwise. Obviously The Bloggess is an unusual example but our own lives work much the same way. When we chose to be vulnerable (with those who have earned such trust) true connection becomes possible, but not just with other people. Being vulnerable makes it possible to love and connect to ourselves. Letting go of the need to be perfect allows us to spend time getting comfortable in our own skin.
Vulnerability is Hard Work
Vulnerability is great. In fact it’s down right essential. But that doesn’t make it easy. And it doesn’t mean walking around “bleeding” on everyone you meet. If nothing else, not everyone you meet is worthy of that kind of honesty. Which is why we have to get good at setting boundaries.
So the root of our practice of honesty and vulnerability must be include the practice of setting healthy boundaries.
Why We’re Here
Crazy Whole Life is mean to be a safe place, a place to be honest with ourselves and one another. It is a place to explore and build something more whole in our crazy world, partly by being honest. (That’s where the “crazy” came from, my own life.) Because that’s why we human beings are here, to connect with one another. In some ways the modern world has made connection much harder, and much easier at the same time.
I have formed real healthy relationships with people all over the world, but to do it I still have to be vulnerable and honest. The internet has not fundamentally changed how relationship works. We still must be vulnerable, just as I would have with my neighbors before the internet existed.
Practicing authenticity, vulnerability, and honesty in our lives takes the power away from those parts of our culture that would like to control us through the perception of others. It strips power from the critics in our head who claim no one will love us if they know us.
Vulnerability is scary, and liberating. It takes practice to let ourselves be seen as we are, and to love ourselves just as we are. But we can do it, slowly, in tiny steps. And we can do it together.
I’m Jo, I’m a bit of a control freak, I can be seriously anxious, I overthink just about everything. I’m also totally in awe of every sunrise I see (all two of them, I don’t get up that early, but I love sunsets!), I bounce around and shriek like a kid every time I catch sight of the mountains or the beach. I cannot walk a beach without picking up pockets full of shells and rocks. (I fill my partner’s pockets too.) I baby talk to my cat, and hold long complicated conversations with my dog and horse. All three humor me. No, we never make our bed, I trash the kitchen when I cook, and I love unhealthy food. I’m weird and broken but still pretty cool (I think), and I’d love to get to know you as well.
Want to get started? How about signup (and get a friend to signup) for a 5 Day Soul Care Course, take it together. Talk through the exercises, see what gets started!